I come with a warning label: Not for everyone! Apparently. What the hell is this all about? Perhaps, this is the introduce myself in a different way, the over glorification of my negative aspects, if you find yourself simply unsatisfied with the above description. You see, it’s hard to describe myself, I even find that difficult to understand. I have already told some of you that through my writing, I will leave pieces of me. I’m not that person who will put all her information out there, there are just some things that I would rather not reveal unless I decide to see people’s true colors. It is not out of paranoia, it is simply because it is easier for me to share my life and otherworldliness. I would rather leave some parts of me to your imagination, ha!
My portfolio is like a weather forecast as you would have probably observed by now, a series of unhappy endings, meaningless tragedies and my daily emotional climate documented. As I resigned to blissful destitution and solitary confinement, I continue to contemplate and recollect my travels, before I begin another great adventure. I speak less and I write more. I would rather let the crowd see me through my writings and leave the other insignificant factors such as cultural background left unknown. Let me just take pleasure in my preserved anonymity.
I had traveled but I despise all cultures. I can respect it, but it is a major factor why people behave the way they do. Once upon a time, a baby was born - innocent, happy and free. Then cultures happened. I also believe that nationalism is a sickness. I love where I am from and I love other worlds outside of it, but I do not want to belong. I want out of labels and I do not want to be part of a territory. I think the whole trouble in this world started with the word - 'mine'.
If you are not a fan of people or civilization, bad news, travel is not for you. As it will open your mind and give you a fresh perspective of the world, it might even challenge your beliefs. That was what actually happened to me. I was like the classic introvert who went to a big party for the first time. I guess I was just too stubborn to lead an ordinary life.
Physically, I'm not very tall. I look like an innocent little girl in person. A crazy woman-child. Maybe that's why I can forgive some travelers for their third-world assumption. I can be downright stupid in many ways but asking me basic questions like if I know the name of this international bank, or if I know what a projector is, just make me want to beat the hell out of them if only it is not illegal. Good thing there is sarcasm. Sarcasm is next to oxygen.
I've been called weird many times, but that is actually an understatement. I am beyond weirdness. I don't like small talks, and I feel uncomfortable in a group with different characters talking at the same time or eagerly waiting for their turn. I told my ex-boyfriend once to never put me in a group, or I will run away. Guess what, I ran away.
I'm a rebel that's true. I rejected authority since I was a kid. And when I was a kid, I didn't like other kids. I had issues with corporate management, police, overprotective mother, school authorities and possessive ex-boyfriends. I guess I have a history of people who wanted to impose strict rules on me. No more control.
I can be hyperactive and random, that I would just invite you to go somewhere to watch the stars. I laugh like no one's around, tell obscure jokes and share my shadowy world through humor. Then I can retire in silence like I just didn't know you and what just happened. I like solitary walks in nature. I'm a recluse. I can be diagnosed with all these deadly mental illnesses, but I'll probably just cut my ear one time.
I can just write about all these contradictions in my personality, and probably make something creative out of the chaos. If you can't relate, then too bad, so sad. I would like to meet original natures out there marked with the same stamp of personality. I would like to share the pain and madness. In the end, what is important is that I am happy.
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