This is a letter from my 16 years old self who once fell in love to someone and broke our heart for the first time.
Me:
You know I’m not a perfect person, I’m careless, a childish girl, a weak one, but you accepted me wholeheartedly. I dont know why I am crying again because of you. I think because this past few days you are so out of reach. Your beside me, but yet didn’t know that I exist. It’s just that, I’m like a wind passing you by and never been appreciated. Today, I can see disappointments in your eyes but you don’t need to say it verbally because your mind says thay it can make me lonely. Indeed its true, verbal way of expressing your feeling can make others see it,in a positive or negative one. It’s there freedom to judge. But eyes are not lying. You know that in yourself. I don’t know why I can feel awkwardness to the two of us. Do you know how much i want to hug you right now? Feeling of being inlove and attach by this specific person was never been my intention. Do I need to leave you? So that you can go on with your life without me. I don’t feel like crying anymore, I know that you want a space for your own self. You need to go on. I needed to stay. I just keep up with you when I’m a better person already. A strong and brave girl. I love you and goodbye baby 💔