Fellow Steemians,
I haven't been active on Steemit for almost 2 weeks now. - Don't think for a second that I've given up or something like that. - The reason I haven't been active is simple. Even though it's still kind of heartbreaking at the same time.
I truly love Steemit.
I love the outstanding community and the endless possibilities I've been given on a silver platter. - Steemit is something incredible and I feel blessed over the fact that I've been able to be part of this amazing community. - I am a Steemian.
Not only have I made some great friends. I have also managed to reach more than 1100 followers, I have earned a decent amount of money and I feel that I've become a better person because of Steemit. I've been able to improve my writing skills and I've been blessed with continuous support from 
I have been able to encourage minnows. I have been able to inspire, motivate and help other people around me. I have been acting as a support pillar of Steemit and I have shared tons of content in various niches, even though I've been focusing on content to help minnows. - I am here to stay and I will never turn my back on Steemit.
The truth is...
That if I could, I would spend all my time on Steemit but I can't. It's impossible.
I have to work, I have to take care of things in my personal life and I need to spend time outside of Steemit. - Steemit is like a second home to me and Steemians are all my family members, but I need to focus on my real life.
Steemit have given me so much so I feel obligated to help, support and guide others around me. I feel like I am in debt. I owe Steemit.
I share because I care, and I owe you nothing.
That's the reality. - I don't owe you and I don't owe Steemit. In fact, Steemit should thank me for being here. Steemit should appreciate my work and the time I spend here... - And Steemit does exactly that!
I have all the tools and the opportunities to make something out of all of this. - And I am trying.
I have focused on minnows. I have tried to motivate and encourage people around me. I have tried to help and support everyone I can... - I have also shared tons of articles about Steemit around the web. In various internet marketing forums, in blogs on twitter and on Facebook. - I have tried to discuss things with as many people as I can and I almost feel like an ambassador of Steemit.
I have given away Steemit merchandise in Sweden. - I have given away SBD to encourage and motivate my readers. - I have given away SBD to personal causes. - I give.
I don't charge you a single cent for the work I do. - I work for free.
That being said...
I do get paid. - In terms of followers. In terms of readers. In terms of comments and also, in terms of money. - Each day is like a present. - Each day is like a gift as I never can predict the outcome.
Some posts of mine won't reach more than a few cents... - That's how things are and I'm okay with that.
However, some of my posts, might, can and will, reach way more than that. - At some point.
No matter how much money I earn, I will never get enough or too little for that matter. - Because money comes last on my list. - Sure, I wouldn't mind being rewarded hundreds or thousands of dollars... - But I'm perfectly fine with the reality of me being rewarded just a few bucks for several hours of hard work. - I'm fine with that... And you should be grateful for that too!
You have the opportunity to do something for the greater good. - Meanwhile you can earn by doing that. - I will not mass-produce articles anymore.
I know that I'm not having a huge impact on the reward pool and the rewards I earn on average are just a fraction of the amount others are reaping on all their posts... - But I can't feel good about myself, my journey on Steemit or the rewards I earn, if I produce tons of articles each day. - I'd rather leave my portion of rewards to others.
That's why I will publish less articles than before. - I will still focus on minnows and to be the support pillar I want to be, but I cannot keep writing multiple articles per day, because that doesn't benefit me, you or Steemit in the long haul.
- So, why is this terrifying...?
Frankly speaking, I want to publish articles, and I probably will and decline payouts on some of them. - And I want to publish articles because that's a way for me to give back to the community. - The terrifying thing about this, is that I will give up rewards I could truly need. Especially in desperate times like this.
I'm about to go on a 24 hour- "mini-vacation" where I'll give away Steemit merchandise. - I will also spread the word about Steemit with tons of new people and I will bring many more bloggers to Steemit in the upcoming weeks. - And this is rather expensive.
- Have I ever asked you for money?
The answer is no and I would never do that. - I would obviously appreciate any type of contribution or donation. - But I would never ask because I don't beg. - I don't ask for help because I want to help Steemit and not the other way around.
- So what do I do?
I power down the money I've earned so far. To cover all the expenses. - I use the money I've earned, from my hard work, to give back to Steemit.
That's how I will continue to do things..
Because I truly believe that Steemit deserves it.
