Kristian w/a "K"
April 2016
The Contemplation of Suicide
Everyday I've been faking the funk
Not feeling like waking up
Try so hard yet it's never enough
They say try when I'm giving up
Like I haven't been trying already
Feeling like my heart is heavy
Legs are spaghetti if I fall who's gone catch me
I've been told to Be myself
But Myself don't want to be so what's left.
Girl you have so much potential
Yeah to kill myself with no issue.
To cry no tissue shoot myself with your pistol
Can't say what will turn it around
I will say my feet is still on the ground
Only because I haven't taken that climb
Up to the roof for the last time.
Only thing stopping me is what if I survive
Then I would have fail yet again
When I wanted to die.