Guys before I say anything, I just wanna say that I am extremley grateful for all the people who have supported me since I've been using the steemit platform. It's been an interesting few months since I first created my account.
However, as a very expressive and sensitive soul, I don't shy away from talking about topics that maybe confusing me and making me feel upset. I prefer to get it out in the open and hope people from the community can help (as so often they do in previous rants like this).
As great as this platform has made me feel it's also had its incredibly low points and I guess right now, I'm at that point.
Since I've created this account, my main content I have been uploading is to do with creative topics. One of them is being apart of the openmic contest. Now the openmic contest is a fantastic way for all types musicians to upload a cover / original song and at the end of the week the winners are announced.
The other week I uploaded a video of myself performing in a church and played one of my best pieces of music and it got a great reception. Which is great (However, it wasn't deemed worthy enough to be featured in the judges top 5 entry picks).
As much as I felt slightly upset by that (as i honestly thought this particular performance deserved to win and yes it's not about winning but it certainly helps build your rapor), this isn't the thing that's the most confusing.
I've tried to upload content every day since starting and have maybe missed a few days here and there through various of reasons. My biggest post that recieved the most upvotes was my entry to the open mic week #82 and I called the piano piece "lost @ c #". I think it recieved in the amount of about $140 which is great and I thought to myself "finally getting the right types of upvotes and reaching out to the people who really do appreciate it, I'm starting to build some momentum". How wrong I was to think that as the next week I upload another entry and it recieves $1, which I just find incredibly insulting and just so bizzare to say the least.
How the hell can it be such a drop? I mean not even $10 which is still ridiculous drop but 1. I upload other content it doesn't even reach $1 and to be honest it does make me upset as I spend. Lot of time and effort in to uploading this content for the community and it just seems like the only way I can make anything is through the openmic section yet I'm now pretty concerned that even that was just a flash in the pan kind of thing.
Maybe I'm completely wrong and just need to be patient and continuing doing what I'm doing and eventually I'll give myself a big slap in the face for ever having any doubts over the platform. However not even getting $1 for songs / museums posts / digital art pieces etc etc is not convincing me I have any sort of real following at all.
I hope you guys don't have a go at me for this and can see where I'm coming from. I'm not trying to be ungrateful believe me I'm not, but at the moment in time it's certainly not making me want to continue uploading any creative content what so ever.