Ever since I was a child they always told me "On your shoulder there's a devil and an angel, the one who tells you bad things is the devil and you do not have to listen to him"
And this poor devil, literally, has never been heard. Oh well, a life to give useful suggestions, maybe a pinch combative and not entirely correct but functional and no one to pay attention to it. Poor devil really. There, leaning over a shoulder to tell you "But do not always be the usual bonacciona, send them to me once in a while" and I will silence him. "Shhhh" and he was sad back in his corner to mix bad things. "Look how stupid she is, but why do you still talk to me?" And I to shrug "It's not bad" and him to respond venomous "Then you're fooled too eh!" And every time I forgave someone? We do not talk about it, there was stirring like crazy. "NO NO NO, but this fool you repose it? Seriously? It treats you like a kitchen maid, maybe even then oh, and you'll take it back, but what's in your head?". And I silenced him, until in silence I was not right. "You saw, I told you so!" he then exclaimed with folded arms.
And I could not reply anything, he was right, he was damned right. "Do not talk to me of damn sweetness I have enough and if you continue to come out with some individuals will touch you know!" To which I could only glance at him grimly and ask myself if I should not listen to him.
"The angel is a stoned, you know it too, he advises you all the ways to get you ripped off, do not disagree, give everyone a hand, do not get angry, do not scream, do not raise your voice ..."
And I assented, he had not all wrong, in short, I never said no, which did not bring good things, but great scams and unscrupulous people who took advantage of my humble condescension.
Do not be angry, same story, same story. Not to scream was even worse, I kept everything inside and in the brain screaming from a metal concert but on the face a nice little smile, sad to a careful eye, pulled.
And that voice that should have made a scene soundly, to be heard, was quiet in the chest.
And with hindsight I tell myself how many times I should not listen to the advice of my childhood, listen to the devil who will also be naughty but has the experience of those who know long and do not get their feet on the head of anyone !
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