I often ponder what makes me, me.
It's a tricky question that leads to a subject that might make one feel uncomfortable. The truth is that the more you open to someone, you knowingly make yourself susceptible to their projections that may or may not have a solid ground. Familiarity breeds contempt. Assumptions, premature judgments, observations that can weave an imprecise story solely based just on outward appearances.
I only know I exist. This identity diffusion often boggles my mind. I am not sure who I am exactly, this changes every so often, so I don't know anymore how is it possible to be oneself.
However, it’s reasonable that a reader would like to know more about the author behind the words, so without further ado, here are some things that make me, me for the time being.
Physically
• I have dimples •
Two dimples on one cheek, a chin dimple, a shoulder dimple and dimples on my lower back. These precisely placed dimples have been with me since day one.
• I look younger than my actual age •
I’ve never met anyone who didn't ask me twice if I am lying about my age.
• My pupils dilate and eyes turn solid black when I am irritated •
Quirky difference that can go unnoticed if one is not observant enough.
• I shake my right leg when I am standing still •
Sometimes even when I am asleep.
Emotionally
• I am terrified – utterly terrified of chickens •
I have this intense fear that chickens will peck my eyes out at any given moment. There is no explanation for my fear, your guess is as good as mine.
• I switch between sarcasm and honest communication in a blink •
Sarcasm has never been an issue per say. I mainly use it with people that I am comfortable around and most of the time on me.
• I avoid wearing the color green •
I notice it affects my mood for reasons unknown to me. An unwritten hostility
• I laugh a lot •
I genuine smile a lot and crack jokes on a regular basis, even on my worst days.
Miscellaneous
• My birth was filmed and used as a documentary for future resident students.•
Successfully delivered in a jam-packed room filled with 12 students, 4 doctors, countless nurses and the whole camera crew. It was a beautiful experience that ended up in many rounds of applause and far too many tear-jerking moments.
• I am allergic to gold and apples •
If you are aware of myths and folktales you can agree with me that I can kiss immortality goodbye since I cannot eat the golden apple.
• I know almost all mainstream songs •
In order for me to focus on work, I need to listen to music I don't like.
• Avid video game player •
I consider gaming to be one of my few weaknesses. I always make time for it, even if it's for 15 minutes.
• Typography lover •
Besides being required by the career I am currently in, I love learning about fonts and 90% of the time I will recognize any font you point me with and also include a variety of similar fonts.
• I do stupid things for the love of animals •
Jumped in front of a lorry to save a cat, made my way between a pack of angry dogs just to save a scared puppy that was at the brink of being torn to death, and many more that are just a reinforcing the idea that I've been hit by the stupid stick when it comes to saving animals. •
• Zero makeup skills •
Truthfully, I can apply my makeup perfectly.... on one side only.
Your version of me depends greatly on things you already know about me, the stories I wrote and the blind spots I tried to fill, whereas my version of me is equivocal.
I ponder, I wonder.
