Do you like to open your eyes of imagination sometimes?
I do love to and it takes me to worlds beyond my reality.
It makes me forget too. Oh I forgot to mention, I am a drug addict. You didn't know that right? Well Sundays are for confessions.
I started undergoing therapy a few weeks back and wild imaginations helps me forget the drugs, yes and the booze too. But sometimes I like to recreate the sensations of the booze and the high of the drugs and you gotta believe me, it usually feels so real that I forget its all in my mind.
I am digressing. Sorry. I tend to do that when I am horny and craving the drugs, but my therapist says boys are off limits. He says he doesn't trust my choice of men, that they could lead me back to the life. Actually, I asked about one night ishs and he so beautifully said no. When he looks at me with those intense light brown eyes, how can I not be obedient? Wait! I think I am falling for my therapist.
Sorry, I am doing it again. Okay I won't digress no more, what were we saying? Yes, imaginations.
I imagine hell when I am at my lows, those messy days when I am drowning in tears in the bed of a man I do not know. Days when there are bottles everywhere and the table is filled with ashes of burnt out cigarettes, those are the days I imagine hell.
Maybe, hell might be kind to me, I am too sure no angel would open heaven's gates to me. In fact the demons would make me feel royally welcome to the depths of hades, they have told me severally so I have sort of forgotten heaven.
Okay, pause. Let's turn the imagination thingy in three sixty degrees, ain't gonna be joking with hell like that. The angels might actually deny me entry to paradise based on my senseless imaginations.
Nah. Let's imagine me as a baby. Cute little innocent five year old baby girl. But maybe a baby with a little twist.
A sweet girl, full red lips, actually its not lipstick its blood. A man eating cute five year old. No, I used "man" on purpose. Of course, I hate men. I mean that.
Days when I am high on words. Oh sorry, its night and I am so hungry.
So.
Goodnight.
©Onashile Peace (tolarnee)
Don't mind me, some days I love to stretch my imaginations really wide and that was what this post was all about.
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