If I lay still will time fall away? Would endless frozen moment bring solace to the tired heart, or engrave the agony of impending loss. Life instructs not to want. Dreams become smaller and smaller with each strangled possibility until nothing is left than the most wretched need for survival now dwindling like the last note of song.
Am but husk and ashes, an abomination still animated in a freak instant of insanity. "Next year will be my year" words spoken with such optimism until years like pealed skin reached the very bone and the mere thought of hope becomes poisoned thorn ...
It is a taunt your expectation of friendly tidings and your god. He who has forsaken me at conception enjoys the the creativity of an endless trail of bitter pills he leaves on my path...
And yet beware, despite a world that hates my existence I live my life as I preach it. As I step from my casket I leave the land of make-believe that was cocoon of stillborn butterflies, dragging a heart behind me that has become so heavy I hardly care to move...
If blood is life and I cut cord, what creation springs from fading view?