12-31-17
A year in weight loss ends with me with a new goal, and only having lost the 20 pounds I’d lost a month ago.
I am not disappointed with myself. I haven’t been thinking much about my weight since that last post. Off and on I realized that my diet ended. Then my sister in law ish person, Kathryn Tidyman posts this article:
Ten Reasons Not to Focus on your wright in the New Year
It is a worthy read.
My big takeaways are here:
ONE
I need to be able to love my body as is. I think I do, but somehow I wrote last year about aspirations of being 200 pounds, and I don’t know if that is a true aspiration.
TWO
For me, starting out on a diet with unclear goals meant I could lose 20 pounds, and yes! It was commendable to go off of sugar. And not eating sugar is a worthy goal. But some random number like 200 is not a personalized goal!
THREE
So many diets end up ultimately making people ashamed or feeling bad or worse in the end, and ultimately gaining weight, or losing self esteme.
FOUR
Give Your Body a Hug! Take Care of Your Body and Love yourself for Being Who You Are!
FIVE
Stay active, eat the right thing, just don’t fixate on silly numbers. You are beautiful already!!!
Outtakes from my 2017 diary
9-30 -17
A food chain depends on real back breaking work, can't just write about movement, must lift my weight to build the core muscles needed to not be in pain while I earn my keep writing all the while.
10-18-17
Why weight watchers works for me:
I use it to track what foods I eat and drink. Typically I would eat and drink almost limitlessly, and just because of wanting to eat or drink right then, which wasn’t connected to actual hunger or even thirst. The same thing with exercise. I have a lifestyle where inactivity can go unchecked, and keeping log of it, and having clear goals is very useful.
Today is the last day of my first week of the diet and I am still excited about it and the possibilities of mobility and fitness. I find it easy to quit eating without even using all of my points, and though I am a little behind in exercise, I am nearly on target, and the motivation is definitely improved since starting the lifestyle change.
And I've lost 5 pounds.
10-22-17
My dreams are anxiety, sometimes because for like a week, I went to bed needing to poop, but didn't want to climb past my little dog Brazen and I fell asleep there on the mat on the floor.
10-25-17
Last night though, I did such a wonderful metta meditation on my bed after an invigorating dog walk. It almost equaled out these bad things.
10-28-17
Lost 7 pounds on diet of 16 days so far. Very thrilled.
10-31-17
My goal is to weight 200 pounds, which is that magic number where a 5’ 9’’ woman stops being obese and is just overweight. The prospect of being that fit thrills me. Already I am so much more energetic than I was, especially in the Summer of Sugar.
For those trying to lose weight, hopefully this helps. Overall, eating sugar or overeating are short term joys. Focus on your long term goal. Think about those skinny jeans or just being alive longer. There is happiness is walking and music. Food isn’t the only pleasure in life. Meanwhile, fitness can provide such a rush.
11-2-17
Stumble out of bed. Go in the kitchen. Heat some butter for eggs. Start the water. Go to my Weight Watchers app. Preemptively enter eggs, coffee, butter. Heat some butter for eggs? WTF! A Tablespoon of butter is 5 points. It’s finally hitting me what this means. Two eggs add to 4 points. I’m spending too much money on butter. I am spending too many points on butter. I am too butter.
11-10-17
Weight watchers says I've lost 5% of my original weight! If I keep at this rate, I will completely disappear in 20 months. Lol.