Everything just kinda seems like one big joke these days, and I don't get the joke.

I quit smoking weed again, which is good... but now I can't sleep, which is bad. I guess I'll just have to keep getting more tired and eventually it'll catch up with me. I have to be an abstainer. I'm

I technically started a new job this week, but it's the same job I have been working all year. Just switched from a temp to a regular employee. I'll be getting paid 15% of my direct deposits in Bitcoin.

I'm getting burnt out on work a little. It happens. I wish I had the ability to just take leaves of absence and return. If we weren't in a deathly bear market, I'd be so tempted to just quit. I should

I'm getting to the point that I'm burnt out on work. That's when I start thinking about ways I could get by without a job. It's worked in the past, but won't during a bear market. I gotta just suck it

They say do what you enjoy. Sometimes, it's not always easy to figure out what that is. Lately, I enjoy playing music, so I've been doing that a lot. Playing guitar or drums by myself, or also having band

My divorce was finalized on Wednesday. I took the whole day off of work for it even though it was in the afternoon. Then I went ahead and took the next day off, too. It's really kind of messed me up, but

I fell asleep at like 7 pm on accident again. It's happened several times lately. I'll take my post-work shower, get on some clean clothes, say "I'll just hang out here w/ the dog for a minute"

This is how you know the divorce is really final: she changed the email address to the Netflix account. haha. Fuck Netflix anyway. Fuck marriage, too.

Early Monday morning. Time to get back to work. It was nice to have a three-day weekend, though by the end of it, I felt a little regret that perhaps I'd wasted too much of it. In hindsight, I did get

I feel like all of my favorite singer/songwriters are all dead. Maybe it's because I want authenticity in my sad sack bullshit music. If you're still alive, you weren't really on the highway to hell after

I had a mostly good off of work day yesterday. I did a bunch of cleaning and stuff around the house. It was overdue, but also my ex-wife was stopping by to drop off some things and visit Stella T. Dog,

Well, the trip to my uncle's lake cabin this weekend got canceled. My great aunt passed away and the funeral is Monday, plus it's supposed to rain a lot this weekend and part of our plan was to paint the

Two more days of work this week and then I'm off to my uncle's lake cabin with my dad. It's not all fun and games this trip, though. We're going up there to help him with some projects. Earning our room

Being both an extreme introvert and someone who shared a lot of friends with their ex-wife, I may just not really get invited to much until I find some new friends. haha.

Long weekend. I worked yesterday, but now I still have two days off because of Memorial Day. Then I have Friday off as well. I'm going with my dad to my uncle's lake cabin for the weekend. I'm excited!

We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion.

Well, I'm all moved into my place. This is the first time I've ever really lived alone in my whole life. I'm 43 years old now. Kind of crazy, huh? At least I have Stella T. Dog. I'm not alone. Just the

I'm 99.999999% sure I died a few years ago and am currently in Hell.

Today sucks. Tomorrow is gonna be worse. I'm tired of all of this.