Well, i didn't expect to receive a reply at my first post with someone suggesting that I introduced myself here. I thought the blog would be kinda of a void in the internet where I could unclog the words

The day, even though I feel like a complete failure and full of self hate wasn't a failure. Was a first step in the right direction and I need to focus on this point. Things will get better and easier.

My doctor said I should try to write a diary to keep track of my achievements and difficulties, this way the small achievement that appear insignificant build up with time and when overcoming a problem