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Kintsukuroi
@kintsukuroi
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Brain soup - a life of depression
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kintsukuroi
semicolon
2019-08-21 12:33
Label me ;
I recently got diagnosed with autism. I join the ranks of several other people who were diagnosed with borderline personality disorder incorrectly. Whilst I have never been keen on labels I had always
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kintsukuroi
friends4life
2019-04-14 23:50
goodbye for now but not forever
I have had @ratticus with me for just over a week and they left this morning. It has been challenging because in that time I've had to face some truths. Filling out paperwork on my lousy range of movement
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kintsukuroi
chronicillness
2019-04-03 12:46
I’m still standing... just
I’m seriously been battered about lately physically and mentally and recovery time takes longer and longer. I’m a bit perturbed by a somewhat compliment my psychologist made to me today. They said they
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kintsukuroi
depression
2019-03-16 10:28
avoidance
I have for a while now avoided looking at steemit. After all if I don't load it and don't write in here (as promised completely honest) then maybe I don't have the issues I'm suffering? An internet version
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kintsukuroi
depression
2019-01-28 14:11
Broken
I had an extremely long day. The kind where I actually started breaking apart. Where you are so desperate for help you are actually willing to make the phone calls but you don’t actually know whom to call.
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kintsukuroi
emotions
2019-01-24 06:29
Hate
Right now I hate you. Except I don’t hate you. I keep being open and honest and you make it so easy to do that. So I hate you because I am not feeling the strongest. Because I am now well aware of how
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kintsukuroi
depression
2019-01-21 04:49
Over...
Over tired and over being tired. Trying to self care by reading. Trying...
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kintsukuroi
depression
2019-01-15 12:21
Brain defect
I would like to report a brain defect. Despite daily patching (medication) there seems to be an error in the tearduct.exe. I’ve run several shutdown commands and it still doesn’t seem to be responding.
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kintsukuroi
job
2019-01-12 12:07
Job
Applied for my almost perfectly described dream job. Damn I wants it so much. My precious.
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kintsukuroi
depression
2019-01-07 11:23
Hurt
I want to hurt myself. I can’t though. Doing so would hurt those whom deeply care about me and I can’t inflict that kind of pain on them. But I so desperately want to scream, tear flesh, cut away and rip
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kintsukuroi
depression
2019-01-07 09:13
Porridge
I’ve been feeling sensitive lately and have spent way to much time hiding in my bed. It’s a safe place. Often I curl up on my husbands side. It smells of him. He is safe. But there have been times where
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kintsukuroi
depression
2018-12-24 06:05
I know the feeling of alone
I don’t get a silent night or day in my head. The simple fact is that I can’t see, hear or do anything without my brain linking it to a time, a place or a person. So when I do have those brief moments
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kintsukuroi
depression
2018-12-15 01:26
Drugged and addled
Yesterday morning despite waking up feeling fine things went downhill fast. Driving my daughter to school I felt pain in my lower back. I ended up pulling in to the Dr’s instead of going to work because
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kintsukuroi
depression
2018-11-29 08:58
Damnit...
Good news can sometimes lead to tears. However they are generally tears of joy. Tonight I received a promotion through St John Ambulance Australia where I teach youth members to be first aiders and support
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kintsukuroi
depression
2018-11-28 09:10
Hug
I need a hug. The kind of bug that engulfs you, that has pressure in it. Enough pressure to help calm my psychotic brain from being such a jackass. But hubby isn’t home. I have a friend that I could possibly
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kintsukuroi
anxiety
2018-11-27 06:51
Flirting
I haven’t posted for a while. Between work and playing single mum whilst hubby was away doing a multiple day St John Ambulance duty O haven’t really opened steemit. Also being truly honest I started a
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kintsukuroi
depression
2018-11-11 09:59
risks (and quotes)
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” ― Anais Nin This is one of my favourite quotes and seems so aptly appropriate of late. I have
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kintsukuroi
mentalhealth
2018-11-09 06:45
observations
I realised the other day that how well I tend to look after myself is proportioned to how well I feel loved and cared for by others.
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kintsukuroi
mentalhealth
2018-11-07 00:37
A little more me
At the start of the year I had a friendship take a nasty hit and despite assurances and promises that this friend of mine wouldn't cut me off, did just that. Of course it's far more complicated than that
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kintsukuroi
labels
2018-11-04 00:01
Labels
*** WARNING: This post contains themes that may be distressing. *** I watched this video today and it left me seriously thinking about labels and having any diagnosis. I am not one for labels. When it
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