Trying to follow the path society told me i was meant to follow, i lost myself. They said i needed to go to school, get a job, make money, get a big house and fill it with stuffs i will never use. I should

Doing something new always scares me and put me in an anxious state. It is a feeling,i don't understand. According to the internet, doing something new or going to a new place is supposed to be very exciting,