I am a dude. I am a total dude. Except I can't pee standing up. But I am a total dude. Logic and rationale rule my brain. Fact over feeling. Logic over like. On days like today ... being a dude isn't helpful.

I was born a girl. I never felt especially effeminate, although I have been told throughout my life all the things that make me "girly." I am graceful and dainty, apparently. Those are

Good morning Sunday. I woke up warm and rested. I had amazing dreams. I stretched the biggest stretch I could before rolling my feet out, putting one in front of the other, and heading downstairs. I love

It is a wonderful thing to sleep in <3 Hunter doesn't sleep very much. He like to stay up late and get up early. And I get it. I don't sleep much either. Anyone who knows me well has heard me say it

When the sky is clear and the sun comes out after a big huge snowfall ... Thick arms of white covering all the branches ... Sidewalks shoveled to make abrupt cliffs at the edge of each yard ... The whole

I don't know what "good" means ... Everything I eat is "good" ... I love food. I love food almost as much as I love to laugh. I like to buy it, I like to plan about it, I like to spend

Jackie. She is my son's new case file worker. The reason I don't want to have to deal with her today is that... she is new. I am averse to change. I work on it but this change is outside of my control.

Well this is going to be a quick morning thought. Because it's the morning. I haven't had my day yet. So now, I wouldn't change anything. If I could change anything about my night it would be that Hunter

FINALLY I am caught up and writing in real time! Not writing in my book and then writing here. To look at the laptop screen was like hell for my head for a while there. Even if I lowered the brightness

My favourite colour is green. Because it is one of the ones that I see. I am not fully colourblind. I have tonal confusion or something. It's a rod and cone disorder of the eye. My rods and cones don't

I rarely see the stars from in the city. I need to get out to the woods this year. I will never forget, this one time in University, driving around with my roomie at the time. She had a sunroof. And the

I remember once, when my daughter was much younger, her telling me that I wouldn't find myself getting disappointed so often if I just lowered my expectations. She was very young, maybe 6 or so at the

Oh this is so easy ... I have drawings of my children. Done when they were three. Greater art has no one than the art they create with their own body. I used to sing and write and do many things as forms

I do love to stop and smell the flowers. And I just bought some fake ones the other day. For my vulnerability. To give to someone. And maybe ask him to be my valentine. I am not like other girls. I don't

I do so love the rain. And the freshness it brings the earth. I love the solemn attitude that takes over entire communities when it rains. I like hard, big heavy drops of rain, pounding down on a tin roof.

Of course, happiness would come a day after sorrow. It always does, doesn't it!? Of course it is easy to be grateful for happiness. It is simple to say thanks for smiles. It is a little harder to live

I have had sorrow. I know that it leads me to other places though. I wouldn't have ever known how much I can grow if not for sorrow. I would never have known how much fire I have in me, without the sorrow

... Many things are foreign to me. something I am grateful for being foreign to me, though ... vulnerability. I am very rarely vulnerable. I have many walls, I've spent years building them, and they keep

Well, the weather here is just the beesknees so ... I am happy! I know a lot of people complain about Canadian winters, but I am in Calgary. We have chinooks. I couldn't live anywhere else in Canada for

Oh of course there is gratitude for troubles overcome! The most in my life is ... Cocaine. I am grateful to have overcome that trouble. I remember how it was before. Before the overcoming. I remember how