This is what I realize when I do my meditation. I realize that this is the only time when I let my mind go completely blank, this is the time I am mindful of any thoughts coming to my mind. Else through the day, mind is filled with clutter.
From the moment I wake up mind starts getting one after another thought. What needs to be cooked, what will I wear, what I will write, phone calls to be made and what not. Something or the other is always going on at the back of the mind. There are times when my mind is multitasking, talking to someone and at the same time thinking about something. Even at night the mind is super active and I have to bring mindfulness to stop thinking.
There are times when I feel exhausted with this clutter. It feels like I’ve lived 10 hours in my head and only 2 hours in my life. But when I travel, I am in complete awareness, I observe that at such times my mind is free. These are also the moments when I feel grateful about life, my surroundings and environment. There are so much peace and calmness in these moments. Absolutely no stress, and the whole energy is uplifting. The feeling of mindfulness is not hollow. It's silence and yet not boring.
For me mindfulness is not always about an empty mind, but it's about being in that moment fully with heart and soul, with no other random thoughts. It's about drinking my herbal tea and relishing the flavour of every herb in it.
Mind full scatters me into a hundred pieces. Mindful brings me back to one. I am not a saint who meditates for long hours. It's a 20 mins daily morning routine, and these 20 mins brings calmness to me and helps me navigate through the stress of the day effectively.
