There are very few self-help gurus that I like, but Teal Swan is one that i often turn to when I feel like I'm slipping down a hole of no return.
Yesterday, I finally faced up to the fact that I am indeed inside a deep addiction. I am unable to contain it, and it's time to burn the house down and start over. The video I watched about this talks about what you need to do when your life is out of control: let it sink in that you are out of control, and just exist in that space. This is what I am doing.
I am wallowing in the fact that I have an info addiction, and that it has taken over my life. In admitting this, I am now able to take steps towards health. This includes getting exercise daily and taking care of my body (which i have let go completely, due to my constant addiction to reading, yes, reading is my main problem right now. This might sound ridiculous to some people, but this addiction is having terrible effects. I can't even go to the gym, because i have FOMO, about some piece of news (related to the crypto world). I also find it impossible not to follow a story, and get all the supporting details. This has resulted in blurry vision, migraines, and other things unmentionable.)
The point is, enough is enough. For me, 2018 is about my physical self being attended to, and letting my insatiable desire for information being cut loose. I have no idea why I feel like I must know everything about everything. It's unsustainable, especially since the 
I am working today even though I have migraines.
This above video is for anyone who wants to "find themselves".
I feel that a lot of problems exist in the world (and on Steemit), because people have not had the time to find out who they are and what passions exist within them. People who are barely surviving are not at a point of discovering this since their survival is the thing most pressing.
My point is though, even if you're surviving, I feel that anyone can use this platform to help others survive and thrive. If you're in Venezuela, for instance, you can use this platform to learn how to make $5 per day, and when you do this, you can then help others learn the same skill. Think small in the beginning. If you extend your knowledge outwards, including others, you will survive. We have to think the way tribes did before the corporations took over. That is our new reality. Most don't understand this, but it is indeed the truth. You must form bonds with each other, helping each other survive. No one will save you until you learn how to save yourself.
I need to figure out how to replace my current addiction to information with something that won't kill me.
This is where I am at. And when I am chasing the information down a rabbit hole, i sometimes ask myself, "What am I after?" The truth is, I don't know.
Cheers,
Stellabelle