Last night I climbed in bed feeling drained feeling anxious and so tired that I couldn't keep my eyes open.
To take my mind off smoking I filled my day with lots of things and got on with the to distract me from how I was feeling.
I went to sleep earlier than I normally would at about 1am and slept all the way through the night, I woke this morning feeling strange.
Instead of going back to sleep like I normally would I got up and dressed and took my youngest daughter to school.
I feel wide awake and full of energy, energy that I have not felt in years.
I do still very much want a smoke but the craving isn't as strong as yesterday, what I felt like yesterday I never want to go through that again.
My anxiety is high, and I feel like I want to hide myself away from everyone until I feel better in myself.
I have noticed something that I didn't have yesterday, I have a cough, and it is almost like I am bringing up flem like when I have a cold.
After I took my daughter to school I popped in the shop to get a drink, and I nearly found myself asking for a packet of 20.
It is more habit than anything I suppose but I managed to walk away with just what I went in for.
All in all today seems easier than yesterday and I hope tomorrow feels better than today.
