Note to myself:
Never more, but really never, do not behave physically in a strange way with a girl you want.
Try, you'll get a block. You're expected to try anyway, and if you try too hard (for the girl) she will not really be angry at you. But if you do not try, no matter how you explain it ("That's what I wanted to do, it was late," etc.), you create a strange aura around you, without any real reason. So strange to begin with.
It's happened to you once, and you've been eating movies about it for years, and now that there's another chance, you're going back to the same pattern.
(So I'd like to fix, but it does not matter now, you have to look ahead.)
Just please remember, never behave like that again. As you like to say, never let things come to a third time.
And also, nice to be special, but behave a bit according to your age ...
