This is my freewrite as inspired by the instructions and prompt given by @mariannewest for her [Day 936: 5 Minute Freewrite: Thursday - Prompt: designer drugs](https://hive.blog/hive-161155/@mariannewest/day-936-5-minute-freewrite-thursday-prompt-designer-drugs)

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Regulation of Self

Standing in the bathroom of the club I stare into the mirror. I know I shouldn't. I know I need to stay myself. But money spent is money spent and I've never let my conscience get in the way before. I reach into my pocket and nervously fumble for the two sleek capsules. 50 bucks. That goes a long way when you make minimum wage. I'm an idiot. Oh well, bottoms up! They go down dry, wanting to hang in the back of my throat. Against all senses I take a drink from the faucet. Man, this place is a shit hole. I can't believe I did that. Time to dance I guess? How long do these things take to kick in? Who is Mike and why did I buy these from him? Shit. They start to kick in about fifteen minutes into my thrashing . I'm sure the movement sped up my metabolism and caused them to hit harder than they would have. The room starts spinning. Or am I spinning? I'm not sure. There's a girl laughing. At me? With me? Man I hate this feeling, I don't know why I keep coming back. Why I keep putting myself into situations that I'll regret Will I ever grow up? Will I ever settle down? Maybe I am a disappointment. ![image.png](https://images.hive.blog/DQmc1wx7wKn1kR5MbpD87i2C69NRQdjowivALjxWtvGkUto/image.png) [*source*](https://www.pexels.com/photo/grayscale-photo-of-group-of-people-inside-stadium-788824/) _________ **Thanks again for your time and attention!** **@jackofcrows** __________ ![image.png](https://images.hive.blog/DQmdFyY8hj1BhiYQAmcWQWAYwhGk4SjvZh3somidkRAAZ1w/image.png) [Steem Monsters](https://steemmonsters.com?ref=jackofcrows) ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ ![Doge.png](https://images.hive.blog/DQmantxC59fV3cHJ7uueJQbsgkPaXegSWQshN5vPsiDc4mK/Doge.png) D7N81UFsYRahNxvEr9G8fbQSnSBfEm9vzy ___________________________________________________________________________________________________

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