So glad you found something that helps you. I have a hard time truly relaxing to be honest. My mind is always going. I used to be an avid motorcyclist and it actually helped me with mental calmness because it requires such focus it's like therapy after a long ride. But I don't ride anymore and haven't found an activity that gives that kind of effect. I've tried meditation but end up resentful, like it's forced relaxing, and I'm too conscious of trying to relax if that makes sense lol