I Don't Know How Much I Weigh!
All I Care About Is My Health and I Can Fit Into My 501 Jeans!
I was born in 1960 and I think my health issues started with my first vaccinations. My mom said I had violent reactions to my MMR shots. My Dad died from cancer when I was almost 5 years old and my Mom married dysfunctional men who liked to drink and one of my step-fathers also like to molest little girls. For as long as I can remember I've had immune dysfunction from asthma to sensitivity to medications and foods. Over the years trying to work with our medical system I gave up trying the prescribed method of finding health and balance in my life. I almost died and went crazy trying to find health taking pills and drugs to find my health and a stable amount of energy to be able to function in this society. One of the symptoms of Fibro is extreme fatigue and I had 4 young children to raise, a job, and a 100 acre farm to care for along with a very demanding husband.
Back in 1997, I was suffering from panic attacks, compulsive eating habits, physical pain, overwhelming fatigue, migraines, bladder and kidney infections, night terrors, and dysfunctional relationships with my family and now ex husband.
I realized no one was going to help me find peace and happiness except me. First I started cleaning up my diet. I was at that time very allergic to grass pollen. I wondered if I was also allergic to grass related products like wheat and sugar. I dropped both and within two weeks felt better and dropped 5lbs, started long distance running and my asthma disappeared within the year.
I continued eliminating refined and fast foods and anything with sugar, watching how my body reacted and ended up eating a organic plant based diet with small portions of starched based food and red meat. I've saved a ton of money dropping my medications along the way.
Over the years I started eating refined wheat and sugar again, culminating in my organic wine making experiment. I ended up getting very sick including gallbladder attacks and going through menopause I was in hell. I was eating organic, mostly food I grew myself and I was sicker than ever. Then I remembered way back in 1997 dropping sugar and wheat, over the years I had slowly forgotten my insight. So I gave away my wine making kit and stopped eating sugar and wheat. I lost 50lbs and my body has found balance after going through pre-menopause, which can be hellish for many women. I think it's hard because our Western Diet is so screwed up! I don't need to eat a lot of food and even with the high price of organic food and free range beef, on a limited income I eat very well. My calorie intake is around 1200-1600 calories a day. I am 5'6 in height and medium framed body.My diet is easy, eat in moderation, eat organic whole foods, and drink clean water.
I Walk 4 Miles Every Day Ran Or Shine!
The only time I don't walk is when thunderstorms roll in here in Oklahoma. I try and walk around nature, rest my eyes on green plants and distant horizons. After working on details all day, letting my eyes rest feels really good! I found moderate exercise stabilizes my bodies ability to burn calories and eliminate waste efficiently. I also found walking lifts my mood, I have less pain and more energy if I walk in the morning and sleep better if I walk in the evening. My husband walks with me in the evening. He is a evening person and I am a morning person. Somehow we've learned to get along even though we are as different as night and day.
I walked away from negative dysfunctional relationships. Back in the early 1990s I was diagnosed with PTSD from childhood abuse and living with my husband an abusive blackout alcoholic ex-Vietnam Vet. I stayed with him for 15 years but left after he stopped drinking but didn't stop with his abusive behavior towards me. I also left my family because the reason I was struggling with dysfunctional relationships was most of my family had been raised to socialize with abusive authority and scapegoating others for relief and hiding their dysfunction.
Meditation and the practice of Buddhist morals taught me how to be a decent human being with good boundaries. I found that being raised by people who enable abuse for the benefit of themselves are not healthy to be around. No matter how hard I tried to practice compassion and patience I felt my energy being drained as if I was living with vampires sucking on my blood a little bit a day, day in day out until I was anemic and listless. When I left my family I felt so much relief, no more subtle put-downs or cutting remarks to make them feel better and make me feel like crap.