Thank you so much for sharing part of your story Jerry, its one of the most courageous things I know. I personally suffered from severe eating disorders for 15 years, using food or lack of it as my way of controlling chaos and escape from the reality I was in and emotions I wasnt equipped to deal with at the time. In that dark space this idea of"Moving away from that is often scarier than the unhappy reality we live in" became a reality for myself...which am luckily moved on now. Hope you are in a healthier space now too Jerry! xx