Going through a heartbreak with an abandonment trauma is the single most unbearable pain in the world. I'm dead on the inside. I'm tired of putting on my 2 happy 4 life persona but I can't let go of this way of this show I've been putting on my whole life. Life isn't fair. It isn't meant to be fair, that I know. But it shouldn't be this painful either. I lost my best friend. My blog. My foot. I'm over this fucking nightmare of a life.
