How did I get here?
Well to make a long story longer, I got here by making the same mistakes I have made my entire life. I decided at some point that "I got this" when it came to drinking and using drugs, and needless to say, no, no I didn't "have" anything. Instead, I gave away a marriage, a home, and a wife that I loved very much. Now, I am back to having two months clean, attending meetings ever day, talking to a sponsor, and doing the things I need to do every day to ensure that I never make the same mistake again - One day at a time.
But what about life?
Well, for me, I am doing everything I can to keep myself busy. I hang out the Alano Club a lot, doing stuff on my laptop, and tonight, I start a kitchen job at a place called Famous Taco. Not exactly what I wanted to be doing at forty eight years old, but at this point, I need to be doing something. Not so much for the money, but really just to not be sitting alone in my own head all day long. For me, my own head is not the best place to be right now. It seems that all I can think about is the mistakes I have made in life and the consequences that I am currently dealing with. I won't lie, it is hard, but in time, it will heal.
So take it easy and just do one day at a time...
I write these posts mainly as encouragement to others that maybe are going through the same or similar circumstances to what I am. I hope that my posts give hope to others, or remind them of what they do not want to do in life. Sharing our experience, strength, and hope is what recovery is all about!
Something to think about!
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