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Reading @bozz’s post, caused me to reflect to find the reason for my inactivity. Sorting out my thoughts, I find some possible causes that can be classified as something personal, family and work-related, and the tension between what I like to do and what provides food on the table. I came up with this list of causes after asking myself, “What did I do the past few days?”
Possible Causes for my Inactivity
Causes that are personal include my lack of sleep and exercise, physical and health condition, and my emotional status. The last one is more manageable for I have been in this situation for more than a decade now. I am getting used to it.
Reasons that are family and work-related included my task as a thesis adviser and as a member of school administration, additional loads caused by the pandemic and the lockdown, and pressure from family especially in meeting daily needs in view of low income and increasing prices of goods.
To be a thesis adviser is exhausting. I also find many students psychologically disturbed. I have been trying my best to understand their situation, but I am affected by their delays in submitting requirements. This “new normal” has added new tasks that were not there before.
Finally, as for the tension between what I love to do and meeting the daily necessities, I asked myself, “Where is my motivation now?” It appears that I have been pushing myself to perform for the sake of growing my HIVE power. Not sure if this is good or not. Perhaps, this is also another reason for my despondency over the last few days. Imagine saving 20.00 USD every two weeks to buy HIVE and just losing it for misplacing one character in my wallet address. This happened last 01 June during the PUD.
I think I already overcome that loss. I am just speculating that perhaps that is one of the reasons for my inactivity.
For now, my focus is on my Hive activity and I can’t just throw my job away. I still love part of it, but I hate those tasks that just pop out of nowhere. They distract me from my productivity. But I have to accept that perhaps this is how our institution works.
And so, focusing on Hive, I came up with a list of things to do:
Reading about blockchain and writing if the ideas are ready.
To continue playing Splinterlands and gradually grow my SPS holdings.
To continue accumulating CTP, CENT, and LEO.
And lastly, to continually grow my HP.
As I commented in 
Summary of My LISTNERDS Weekly Report
My 03 June email, “Exploring the Eurodollar Market to Understand Cryptocurrency” received 223.856 LISTNERDS. My 10 June email, “Motives and Regulation” received 91.549 LISTNERDS. And then my last email, which was a solo mail about my family received 254.16 LISTNERDS. As a result, I was able to increase my holdings from 1,500 plus to 2,700 in 20 days. That’s an 80% increase in three weeks. I consider it big for a free account! I was actually anticipating disappearing from the top 50, but until now I manage to hold the 48th place (as of 24 June 2022).
An Afterthought
Just a few days ago, the price of LISTNERDS was falling. At that time, I happened to open 5 LISTNERDS from the random reward. I saw some disposing of their tokens even at that bargain price. I refused to join the sellers’ group because I am waiting for a fair price. Between 1 to 1.5 HIVE is fair for me. Lower than that, I refuse to sell.
As for Splinterlands, I find maintaining four accounts exhausting. Yes, I still believe in the long-term prospect of the game. Perhaps, I need some rest.
Grace and peace!
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