The rain is falling outside, beautiful large rain drops that make such a welcome sound on the roof of my truck. It’s likely that this will be the last rainfall before summer really begins. Outside everything looks so alive, so green and vibrant, which is enhanced by the smell of the wet earth! That has to be one of my favorite scents, it really uplifts me.
I woke up this morning feeling really tired and heavy, reflected by the grey clouds that were hanging low in the sky, wrapped around the mountains, shielding them.
Days like these always make me more reflective and by body reacts by calling on me to take some time for myself, to rest and allow myself to dream, to manifest!
A few days ago I was informed that someone had made a reasonable offer to buy the land and that I need to move by the end of the year. I have been expecting this, but it really hit home when I heard. I still have no idea where I will go with my girls, but I keep telling them that we will find somewhere better!
I know that the perfect place is out there just waiting for us, I just don’t know where to start. I want to stay in this area, but they are making it very difficult for folk to live how we do, there are new settlement laws being drafted, which means you cannot live in vehicles on land anymore?
I’ve been thinking of letting my truck go, but first I need to get it up and running so I can get it off the land. It has been our home for the last 6 years and I it has mostly been a wonderful space to live in. But it also holds some negative memories and energy, something I have tried hard to shake off.
A new beginning will be good for me and the girls.
Once I get my head around everything that needs to be done. I have still to buy a new battery. I do have some Hive in my wallet, but I have been saving that up to spend on the Truck, hoping it will be enough to get it up and running. It doesn't help, that I found a rats nest behind the dashboard a few weeks back and a few wires chewed!
So I need to get that sorted and finding someone who specializes in electrics for a big truck will be pricey. The last time the truck was running, it was overheating a lot and we did have some one come look at it, who told us that the engine would need to be reconditioned. But I really don't want to spend all that money, especially if I am not sure if I want to hold onto it.
But I do need to get it running. So all in all, it is going to cost quite a bit of money. But first I need to get a new battery, as I need to have power.
I'll admit that all of this have given me some sleepless nights, because I want to make sure that my girls will have all that they need and that we will be ready to move when the time comes. So yes I have been manifesting, because I really do believe in the power of intention, but I am only human and it is hard not to stress a little, when at the moment I have no clear solution in sight.
These are the moments where I remind myself to breathe and to have faith to trust that everything is as it should be and that we are all experiencing a huge transition at the moment. All of us are experiencing upheavals in our lives.
Like I mentioned earlier I am in two minds about moving on from this land, the land itself has been so good to me and my girls, it is only some of the people around that have been less so.
But I will miss these ancient Olive Tree's that surround my truck, the shelter that they have given us, the strength that I have drawn from them! I will miss the smell of neroli right outside my door in the late Spring and the sight of the Pomegranate flowers outside my window.
This land has an abundance of fruits and nuts and I have been so lucky to have been able to enjoy them all. My girls and I, so lucky to be able to walk the land and pick fruits or nuts straight from the tree's when they are hungry. To enjoy this gifts from nature, food so full of life and vitality, being ate they way they are intended to be.
This is just how life is for them, how it has been for the last 6 years and I am so very grateful for that. I only to find somewhere else that is just as abundant and giving. But then, you do get back what you give in!
So I have these delightful moments of gratitude, in amongst moments of slight panic. But life, it always gives you what you can handle, Right? So many lessons to be learnt amongst this new chapter that I am on, these new beginnings that I have embraced. I am more excited that anything and that's what I want to focus on, perhaps I will answer the call of the Sea after all!
