I recently got diagnosed with Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD). I had suspected for a while that something wasn't quite right, and after going through the diagnostic process with a mental health professional, I finally had an answer. But as relieved as I was to have a name for what had been going on, I also felt a flood of emotions that I wasn't quite prepared for.
I've been feeling a mix of relief, sadness and even anger since the diagnosis. On the one hand, I was relieved to finally have an explanation for why I had always struggled with certain things and to have a roadmap for moving forward. But on the other hand, I was sad that I had gone so long without this understanding and that I had struggled so much. And at times, I even felt angry that I had been struggling for so long without a clear reason. And that even when I started suspecting that something could be wrong somewhere, a lot of people around me just kept simply telling me to "shake it off".
I've been feeling more empowered and in control these last few days. My diagnosis doesn't define me, but rather it gives me the tools and understanding I'll need to navigate the world in a way that' work for me.
I'm supposed to go back for another appointment to get started on meds again next week. I'm really looking forward to how things might turn out to be for me as soon as I start getting the help I've always needed. I know it's not going to be easy.
If you're reading this and are struggling with a lot of issues that are similar to ADHD, know that you're not alone and that it's completely normal to sometimes feel like things are out of control for you.
I wouldn't have seeked help if I hadn't seen tons of experiences of people who were diagnosed and how it's helped them. And remember, your not imagining things. If you think there's something going on, do well to explore that. Don't let other people make you feel "it's all on your head".
Stay strong fren, and seek help when you're finally ready to.