Don't worry, I didn't spiral like AI suggested 😊 It is likely my continued attempt at escaping my soothing tools (weed/alcohol), and my dodgy kidney which are making multiple consecutive hours of sleep tricky. Oh and I have a new job busying my mind also.

As we are interacting as friends i do much better - my boundaries are more intact and I don't lose myself so much. People-pleasing is where I struggle - i give myself up and then get grumpy when it's not returned in kind. I ask too much - just because I over-please it doesn't mean others should too.

Thank you for the kind words, I appreciate them 🙂