What Am I Really Doing With My Life?: Ladies of Hive Community Contest #34

Link: @ericaa/what-am-i-really-doing-with-my-life-my-entry-for-ladies-of-hive-community-contest-34

Oftentimes we are told to find our passion or our calling in life and stick to it, as one of the ways to live a fulfiled life. Besides the different jobs I do, I'm passionate about certain public health issues and I get the most satisfaction when I do things along these lines. But there is one thing I do not understand about myself. It has been a major challenge which has bothered me for the longest time:

I have this lingering thought (or fear) that I don't know what I'm doing with my life, that I'm wasting my life.

I feel like there is something missing, something always evading my grasp. It springs up this constant feeling of emptiness (sometimes worthlessness) within me.
As much as a part of me knows that I'm doing what I would consider my best in every aspect of my life, it just doesn't feel that way. And guess what's funny... people who know me think that I have everything figured out. I truly don't. But in recent times I've been working to
change that.

What I'm Doing to Overcome this Challenge
For one, I've been reading some self-help books recently to encourage myself. I've also been reading articles online and, truly, it's a relief to know that there are people wearing similar shoes. It's beautiful to know that I'm not alone in my confusion; there are people like me.

Also I have been doing some yoga and meditation. I joined the 21-day meditation with Alicia Keys and Deepak Chopra, and I've done 10 days so far. It's my first exposure to meditation and I must say it's going really great. I feel more and more in control of my own happiness.

Finally, I am making the serenity prayer my mantra. I try to fill my mind with gratitude for the things I already have and am in control of, while consciously suppressing those I can't control (yet). I hope to keep doing my bit in spite of the doubts, and let my conscience be my guide. I am gradually taking charge of my life again.
I'm inviting Hive account@stormz-y to the community; it's an amazing one. 🙂

This is not a part of my entry but I'd like to thank Hive account@ladiesofhive for the opportunity to express myself in this way. It feels good to know that there's a community here where ladies can freely share their thoughts.