It’s weird, but I feel like I’ve prematurely aged into an old soul. I often find myself observing the world from a third-person perspective, imagining I’m completely invisible—just a silent bystander watching life unfold. I’ll stop to watch an auntie running her street stall, or an old man sitting by a shop door, taking in their every move. Yet, somehow, these everyday scenes don't stir up any emotions in me anymore.
If you ask me what my biggest change has been over the past two years, I’d say I've become more indifferent. Nothing really triggers my feelings; honestly, even opening my mouth to speak feels exhausting. I used to find kids on the street adorable, and I’d be deeply moved by people working hard to make a living. Now, everything just feels numb. I’ve become like an NPC roaming the Earth. My senses are dulling, my artistic spark is fading... it’s like watching pieces of myself slowly turn transparent, and being completely powerless to stop it.
