Living my teenage years was truly enjoyable when I fell in love with a woman who used to be my childhood friend, but after she grew up, I started to approach her again because she was my childhood friend. When we were little, we often played together. She was a graceful woman, so many people liked her, but I was always by her side. She was actually the one who was always there when I was going through things that made my mind stuck and sad. Even though we were only 15 years old at the time, we already had mutual feelings for each other.
feelings
The heart cannot be deceived, although I was actually a little shy around her because I was still in puberty at that time. Perhaps it would have been better to avoid her before anything happened. I tried to avoid her for the past few years, going out of town so I never saw her, but I can't forget the most beautiful moments with her.
my longing
I feel so guilty about what I did to her. She actually has the same feelings as I do, but I always avoid her because her house is too close to my mother's house. Because of that, it's hard for me to let go of that love. Sometimes we often talk about our feelings, but I'm embarrassed to express my feelings to her.
my departure
When I go out of town, she often calls me and says that if I'm not there, she feels lonely because there's no one else to cheer her up. I smile in my heart, saying that I actually love her very much, but I'm thinking about other things because she's a pious woman. I feel uncomfortable when I lie to her. Even though I have feelings for her, I've kept them to myself until now. But I still remember the past with her. What beautiful days when I was with her...
