There is no greater peace of mind than going to sleep knowing that you were consistent with your values, words and promises.
To have "everything" and to have nothing.
It sounds like a cliché until it happens to you, about what no one tells us about the top, that is, when we reach success...
Well, the anxiety that comes with success is equal to the paralyzing fear that we feel "to lose everything".
When external validation is no longer enough to plug the gap, and we get tired of pretending that success equals happiness.
To be honest with you who read me, many of the most important decisions of my life were made out of fear, and not out of conviction. I have achieved success in many moments, reaching the top many times has generated the feeling of inadequacy because the cure was never to have or to be more.
It's a terrible dead end, isn't it?
Look, there are people who build entire empires trying to fill a void that no external result can close. And the moment when that becomes evident, is when we already have everything we supposedly need to feel enough and we still don't feel that way, it's like facing a challenging mirror.
I arrived just there, and what really moved me was not an achievement, it was sitting with an 80-year-old man a year ago in his last session of life, listening to him in the midst of the purest pain and understanding something that no success had been able to teach him... My father passed away today.
This conversation left me a lot to learn and reflect on. If one dies, the opinologist of the mirror oneself is not going to take responsibility. Be careful then, darkness also disguises itself as light but it is still darkness.
What I have learned is that every emotional story has its moments and its contributions, without a doubt. Getting to know each other is essential, to know what moves us and what holds us back. If we don't know what moves us, fear ends up driving the wheel.
There are people who have worked surrounded by success, fame, money and power but who also have to face the emotional emptiness that often appears when we discover that reaching the top does not necessarily give us peace.
From the fear of not feeling enough, from success, from the pressure to prove ourselves, from the relationship with money and how to learn to live without betraying oneself, there are many emotional wounds that many of us go through. There are people who go very far, even achieve success, and yet, they keep fighting with themselves. Sometimes there is a lot of contradiction, and also a lot of leadership of ourselves.
If you stand in front of a mirror and see yourself, inside and out, you probably won't have time to take care of others.Be happy! ...live your life and stop living other people's. That is, do not comment if you have not been requested.
Nice day ✨
Janitze 🦋
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