I have already made the decision that I am not going to put her through this. We go back tomorrow for an ultrasound and more concrete information on what the future holds, I will not do like friends of mine did and prolong her life artificially for my own sake. It is a tough choice to make I know, it will hurt me for a long time since the last 12 years of my life have kind of revolved around her, but it would be very selfish for me to prolong her pain just so that I don't have to be alone.