So sorry that you had to go through all that ordeal.
"One often tends to date partners that recreate ones childhood experience. Literally every man or woman I was in a relationship with ended up being my mother all over again in some aspects. At some point i decided to just cut the whole thing out of my life and it has worked well for me , but then I have lived most of my life on the outside of everything. I get lonely from time to time but truthfully it is rare, then i remind myself of the many benefits being single has and I am ok again . Not everyone is like me however some suffer greatly without a partner ."
You are on point with this one and I never realised it until you said it. Looking back, all my past relationships had a common thing: everyone of them tried to change me and the all said I'm not good enough.
As for being single, I can take it, I kinda like being single. I make a lot of progress when being single but we humans are social creatures and need someone sooner or later. I do get lonely too, now more than ever but I try really hard to focus on myself, on getting myself on track so at the end of this I come out stronger and hopefully not make the same mistakes.
Really appreciate your comment and hopefully a time will come when we'll look back and be proud of the progress we've made.
Thank you so much!