Here at the edge of sanity, I stand;
Recalling your whispers each night.
Taunting me.
My will has faded.
I can no longer hold out.
Burning bright like the sun, your clamant needs call.
You lay bare at my feet your demands.
I can no longer counter.
Burning bright like the sun, your golden assets torment.
You disrobe to unveil that beguiling silhouette.
I fall prey to each night.
Then wake, with intense burning of my ache.
I can't be oblivious to the flames beyond.
I know they will consume me.
Let them.
For I can no longer hold out.
Just to be able to defied the unattainable.
Will you no longer desire me
once I succumb to your wickedness?
Why torture me with your hunger?
I'm just a being born from lust and desire.
I'm perplexed why I can't control my appetite.
The end I feel is just beyond your call.
You care not for me.
I see the eclipse above rushing over my past.
What do you want me not to see?
Minutes turn to seconds.
My destiny won't wait.
Indecision guided me through a lifetime of misery.
The shroud overshadows my thoughts
taking over my sane for senseless reasons.
What should I do?
I hear the faint summons of my past;
imploring me to question why this power over me exists;
pressing me to examine the source of my inquietude.
Forgiveness and redemption await in their arms.
But I can no longer accept it.
For if I do, mundane and drudgery
I fear will be my shackles;
forever pulling me down into a life of mundane.
I turn away from their reason.
My life I'll shed.
I can't live in this world
with the shame and guilt of craving you.
I'm ready, I believe.
Don't be afraid, You say. Come with me.
Where forth do I go?
Backward into Tomorrow.
My Inspiration for the Poem "Backward Into Tomorrow"
A Nvidia Gaugan AI Digital Drawing:
While creating this Nvidia Gaugan digital drawing, I was drawn to the center of the bubble. The image enticed me to define in poem what I was seeing. Once I started writing, the feelings of longing, desire, regret, confusion, fascinating, beauty, alluring, and turmoil beyond rose up in my thinking.
The scene looks as though you can just step into another world. The other side seems strife with turmoil. But then I thought danger lurked beyond. Someone was beckoning as one stood on the outside looking in. The person wants to resist, but the pull is too strong.
I wanted to include in this drawing clouds seeming as though it's an entrance to another universe. It's unfamiliar; but maybe not. I felt as though the person couldn't have possibly visited this enchanted place unless in a dream state. For the bottom of the scene, I added a a few rocks and other items.
I created this drawing using using the software, Nvidia GauGAN. The software generates photorealistic imagery from basic brush strokes you paint on a blank canvas. You can add various elements, i.e. buildings, grounds, landscape, and plants with the tools provided.
Below is the image of my basic brush strokes for the world beyond.
Happy rest of the week everyone with whatever your endeavors.
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