This is my post for #freewriters 2845 prompt my second worst relationship hosted by
My first relationship was my worst, and I have not had a second worst, but the way the last two days have been, this relationship could turn out to be my second worst relationship. (that's just the prompt).
I know my son is messing up, and only comes here when he needs a place to crash and get a full belly. I know why he does this, I do not need to be told. I can not bring myself to tell him he can not have a safe place to sleep and get a full belly, my heart will not let me do it.
I never understood how my Mother could let my sister do the same thing when she was on drugs. I used to get so mad at mom, but now I understand why she did it. You can not understand why a mother would tolerate this, until it is your child. Maybe that is my husband's problem, he is my sons stepfather.
I could only get 3 hours of sleep last night, and just after daylight I left the house. I needed to get away before anyone woke. I did not want to talk to any of them, so I went to the river. I can drive there without getting on a big road.
It was slick, calm, and the waves were rolling in the entire time I was there. It was from the boat traffic in the channel. This with the water being high and the tide going south which made the brown creek water go my way all made fossil hunting difficult.
Before this fisherman showed up, there was a school of bait south of where he is fishing, I know it was a trout I saw strike in them. A trout has it's own sound when it strikes on top, and if you watch, a slick will appear where it struck, and it did.
I saw this in the water and thought I found a big piece of fossilized bone.
I was disappointed when I picked up a piece of rebar.
I like to walked this shoreline to the bridge and back. I used to find arrowheads along here, but I have not found one since the 1990s. I know they used some of the Indian mound material from here to build US1, but they also hauled fill in from other areas and I wonder if the fill with the arrowheads is now in deeper water because of errosion.
I only found a few small pieces of pottery and, one small bone. I also found a few rocks that I liked, and a small sinker. I didn't care if I found much, I just needed a break, and it was so nice.
People say the underside of a catfish skull resembles Jesus on the cross. This was a good time to stop and say a prayer.
The black stuff down the legs is flesh, I was not cleaning it, it stunk!!! And now I see something that looks like a pearl, I forgot they have them inside the skull, when you shake it, it rattles. I don't know what they are called, I call them pearls, but I know that is not correct.
I went home feeling better.
photos are mine
