Story time yay!
It's kind of a sad story BUT with a happy to be continued...because it's not the end as we keep living on!
So let's go back in time for a bit...
Since I was little I was what I like to call in Portuguese "de boa boca"...or a good eater!
And since I know myself, I have always been chubby!
Of course, I was bullied in school before bullying was a "real" thing lol
My self-esteem was ruined through the years; my only comfort was music...and food!
I would eat when I was sad, I would eat when I was happy! Because the food was always there and would never disappoint me!
Years went by and my size grew with maternity and with the big quarantine! You probably watched me in some vlogs and pictures as well as some live sessions with Jon and Blain!
And if you know me a little, I always liked to help others..and that was and still is, in a way, the goal!
All this time I was taking care of others, including my kid and I would always leave me behind! It took to a point that I was in terms of my weight because there were always other things more important than myself.
I did try many things in the past to lose weight but I wasn't focused enough and ended up always with excuses! And I was so ashamed and disgusted with my figure in the mirror that I would keep my mind occupied with other things like my passion for massage therapy, my family and even the HIVE/CTP community!
Until one day...A picture made me deep thinking:
I'm still ashamed to show but spoiler alert..that's not me anymore lol this was on Mother's Day in 2022 when was offered me a day with David in the swimming pool where he was having lessons.
I started to get kind of scared of not being able to enjoy or even be present in these little times with him in the future if I kept on eating like I was!
So the mindset slowly changed...instead of taking care of others first so I could be happy...
I am taking care of myself first to take care of others even better!
As I got a permanent contract at the Spa, money was stable and I promised myself to invest part of it just for myself and never give up or give excuses!
So I got professional help, this part you might know if you followed some of my Actifit Reports in the past! I've been with a nutritionist until around May or June this year. I was forced to stop because I changed time shifts at the Spa...
I learned a lot these past couple of years and I want to believe that now I can do it on my own! I have better eating habits, I'm not too attached to food as I was in the past and I know more about intermittent fasting. There's still work to do though...At the moment the goal is to add more exercise to my routine besides walking so I can gain more muscle!
But for the time being...here's a before and after:
30 kilograms, or about 66 pounds!!
Quite a difference, huh? :)
I'm still in shock sometimes lol
I have self-esteem now, which I'm still learning lolol confidence and much more energy!
I feel...more alive! And pretty lol
This was at my best friend's wedding a couple of weeks ago..now I take pictures and I am happy with the first shots that I take instead of choosing the best angle to avoid the ugly parts..or not taking pictures at all!
Now there is also a difference in why I could make it this far now than in the past besides changing my mindset...let's say I had an extra push ;)
But that will be a story for another day!
I will just leave you with this:
Love y'all!