This week has been quite intense with work, as I have already had six direct deliveries and the seventh will be a five hour monster to close it out for the week. And, these have been on top of my "normal" work, though normal is something I am unsure of at the moment.
Next week, we also have a "Team Week" where people are flying in from all over Europe to gear up for the holiday party (can't say Christmas anymore), with most coming in early to take advantage of the opportunity to get together face to face. This means there are also evening programs too, which means that it will be another week of not having anytime away from work.
At the moment, I am literally sitting down at my desk at 8am and getting up around 7pm, with a 15 minute break where I grab a bite to eat. It is untenable in even the mid-term, but there really is no other option, as things need to be done and with the team losing a member recently, there is only one person carrying the responsibility.
Reap what you sow.
And unfortunately perhaps, I have sown the seed that I am someone who is able to consistently deliver, even under inconsistent conditions. While this means that I get turned to when needed, it also means that at least for now, I am relatively "safe" in my position and will likely earn some brownie points (social capital) in the future, with my hope that it will also translate into monetary capital.
I am edging for a pay increase in 2023, but I am unsure if I will be able to get it under the current conditions, where "caution" is the name of the game in the tech sector. While the job market is quite hot overall, which means there are alternatives out there, I am also not keen to change employer for a few extra shekels, as I like where I work and it has other benefits, like I can still have my business in the background, as well as "side hustle" on Hive and in crypto.
One day, I do hope that crypto will be my main gig for income, but that is a long, long way away until it is a steady enough return to provide what I need. These large fluctuations in price mean there is far too much instability of income, so unless there is consistently being a lot more than I would need on average, it can't happen.
I can dream though.
Supplementary income is all it will likely ever be, even if it is a large supplementary income. If of course there was a massive increase in value and I was able to clear all debts (mortgage) and still earn on top, then it could be much less. thinking that at the moment I have about 200K HIVE staked getting around 40 HIVE a day in earnings, I suspect that debt free, I would need around a 1.5M Hive powered up to cover expenses after tax. that is a lot of Hive. Granted, if Hive was 10x the price, it would be enough, but it would still need to be steady.
It would be pretty bloody brilliant though!
The problem is, I don't think that even if I was earning like that, I would be able to sell. There seems to be a lock in me that says, don't sell, keep stacking. I have forced myself to diversify a little into Splinterlands, but I see that as "Hive Adjacent" anyway.
Yesterday when there was the dip, I took what I could and bought what HIVE I could with it, and while it wasn't much, it still felt good to get "cheap Hive", even though I overpaid compared to where it is now. However, I am focusing on where it will be in the future and I am still a very strong believer that it is going to be "up there" in terms of value. How far up I don't know, nor do I know for how long, but "up" is good enough for me at the moment.
Sowing.
And perhaps this is what a lot of people are forgetting today. They want to farm, yet they don't seem to be planting much. I am not talking just on Hive, I am talking of the world in general, where there is this sense that there should be a crop to bring yield, even though no one is tilling the soil and sprinkling seeds. People looking to get into management level positions out of school, with the salary of a professional, despite them not yet working a day in the job.
Ah well - to each their own.
Right?
It is funny how everyone wants to "do what they want" but when they are struggling, they expect to get bailed out by the people who didn't do what they wanted. Getting handouts seems to be an expectation in society now, where it is essentially expected.
My life sucks in so, so, so many ways and it would be far easier right now to just say, "Fuck it!" and do what I "want" instead. But I know where that leads, because unless there are deep resources, what I want and possibly get today, will get increasingly hard to accomplish as resources dwindle, forcing me into a spiral of decreasing ability to get what I want, so decreasing what I can have, until I can no longer get much of what I want and, have nothing to build from.
I spent everything I had. Handout please.
It is like an irresponsible preteen who spent all their money on candy, and now want more money to see the movie that they had already been given enough money to both see and have some candy too.
"Pappa betalar"
Daddy pays.
It is easy to see this kind of lifestyle choice for Gen-Z, who flaunt it on Instagram, but it is common in other generations too, albeit using different social mechanisms.
Sow nothing, expect everything.
I work too much.
But I wonder which is worse - working too much, or not working enough?
On which side to err?
In my opinion, it is better to make the first cut a little too long, than a little too short.
Taraz
[ Gen1: Hive ]