I'm sorry I have been so absent. It's been an interesting time, lately. I have been very busy finishing my coach training and once I had submitted my last portfolio for that 2 weeks ago, I just kind of fell apart and allowed myself to not really do anything worth mentioning. Basically I have been on the couch binge-watching Netflix for the last 2 weeks. And I haven't felt bad about it, it wasn't until I actually allowed myself to not really 'do' anything that I realized how much time and effort I have put into this training for the last 2 years. Now I'm having a break from clients, practices, and building my business and I'll continue with this break until the end of the year.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel that I'm improving. Learning more and more how important it is to rest and take breaks. I'm not super happy about Netflix though but I have decided it's ok for a short period of time. It's an escape, I know, but I don't want to be too hard on myself. I know I'm that so much already and it's not helping me. I also know I'll get bored soon. But until then, I'm enjoying this lazy time. (I still work though and work has also been quite busy lately).
Also worth mentioning is that winter has arrived here in Sweden. It's cold now, below zero degrees Celsius and that's just too cold for me. I hoped last winter would be my last winter here but I'll do my best to make the most of it. I think I still need to get used to it so I shouldn't complain. With the snow it's beautiful. After all, I appreciate the different seasons and it certainly would feel strange if it was summer all year round in Sweden. Each season has its own purpose and challenges. Also reminds me of my menstrual cycle and how much I have learned to appreciate the different phases.
To appreciate the beauty of a snowflake it is necessary to stand out in the cold.
ā Aristotle
I have been meaning to deepen my yoga practice now when I have more time but I have actually been quite busy with acupuncture treatments. (So well, not only Netflix now when I come to think about it). Some time ago I had a consult and started a rather intense acupuncture treatment, I have been going 3 times a week for the last 4-5 weeks. I decided to really give this a chance. By now I have been trying so many things but I know I can't give up. I think I feel some improvement but it's not substantial. She says it'll probably take more time but at some point, I have to decide how many treatments to pay for without really seeing much of a result. But I'll continue now a couple of more weeks at least. Then there will be a break during Christmas anyway.
But I'll make more time for yoga. It's interesting because I have actually returned to Iyengar yoga (which was the very first yoga style I practiced). I felt drawn to really honor my cycle more and I have a book called "The Woman's Yoga Book - Asana and Pranayama for all phases of the menstrual cycle". It's written and illustrated by Iyengar yoga teacher Bobby Clennell and revisiting this book has really inspired me to start using all of my yoga props again. And to really also to more restorative asanas with a lot of support. Especially when I'm on my period. (I'll probably write more about this later).
That's also why I haven't really been to the pole studio much lately. It's fun sometimes but I can't go there when I'm on my period. It's just too intense. It's not what my body wants. But since I started taking classes there I have gone anyway. Because I paid for a course and I didn't want to miss out. But I do know, I miss classes. But I also start to feel it might not be what I need right now. Because I have lost the joyful feeling I had in the beginning about pole dance. I don't know, I'll see how I feel at the beginning of next year but I might be signing up for some other kind of dance class. I actually took belly dancing classes for a short time in Berlin. That might be something to rediscover š
I feel I'm starting to ramble a bit now. I think I'll end it here. The bottom line is that I'm in resting mode as much as possible until the end of the year and after New Year, my plan is to focus more on my coaching business again. Hopefully feeling more energized.
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