IMPOSTER || PART TWO
After this dark month of life has passed. I thought I could go back to normal life. I thought I would forget everything and move on with my life. My dad always told me, Nilima, you will touch the sky. Your enormity will be like the sky. You will never compromise with injustice. But to be honest this month I may have stopped life. If I wanted to move forward, I still couldn't. Because the people around me were so violent that I wanted to give up my life. The question arises in the mind too, the man I was in love with, who promised not to leave me every day, how he made me disappear from people.
When I first set foot in University, I was very scared. I wondered how I would present myself to other students in unfamiliar places. Guitar in hand, eyes twinkling, caring eyes was staring at me. I could not raise my head in fear. But I could hear someone's footsteps. Coming slowly in front of me, he came and raised his hand and smiled.
Hey, I am Aranya.
I am Nilima.
Aranya: Hey, there is nothing to be afraid of, I am your classmate. We are all friends here.
Nilima: I breathed a sigh of relief and said that it was the first day which made me feel a little nervous.
Not that the day went bad. But a pair of care's eyes were looking at me all the time. Which I could understand from a distance. I always felt like someone was following me. This feeling of mine was not a lie. Aranya was staring at me with one glance while I was at University. I made many friends as a first day. One of them was aranya. Seeing Aranya, it seemed as if 'we have known each other for many years'. But we just got to know each other. We talked a lot in one day. Aranya was obsessed with everything I liked and disliked. What I like to eat, my hobbies, my favorite colors, my favorite movies and listening to music on headphones. When we were together, there was always a song I liked. We used to listen to a song very much.
ওহে কী করিলে বলো পাইব তোমারে,
রাখিব আঁখিতে আঁখিতে-
ওহে কী করিলে বলো পাইব তোমারে,
রাখিব আঁখিতে আঁখিতে-
ওহে এত প্রেম আমি কোথা পাব নাথ,
এত প্রেম আমি কোথা পাব নাথ,
তোমারে হৃদয়ে রাখিতে।
When I spent time with Aranya, I could not understand when time passed. We became very good friends at one time. Then the respect and love for arayna is born by itself. I still remember the day aryana broke the bonds of friendship, knocking on the door of love. He had a bunch of red roses in his hand and a very favorite gift. It was a bit ridiculous but it was more special for me. That was my headphones for listening to music. Because Aranya knew very well that I listen to a lot of songs.
Which is why I have so many headphones. Aranya became more and more caring towards me after I fell in love. Aranya used to notice my very small things. I was lucky to be so caring for him. If I was a little upset, he would come in front of my house. A lot of times it used to be standing by grabbing his own ear. Not only that, he came in front of my house at midnight on my birthday and startled me. He always said you should wear a burqa. I can't stand it when other people see you. I'll just see at you, no one else. Everyone at the varsity used to say that not usually have a relationship like this.
They would give more examples by showing me and aranya. Our relationship went from deep to deep for a while. Aranya told me, after few days we will get married. I love you so much, I know you love me too. That day made me believe that our relationship will be stronger after having a physical relationship. Which is why I never objected. But I know how everything get changed. I began to feel unbearable to the man who could not live a moment without me. Aranya get disturbed by my voice, My presence began to annoy Aranya. Who is this aranya? I didn't seem to know him. A masked devil, wearing the mask of a good man for so long, was acting in love with me. Which I did not understand a single moment.
Well, then you guys tell me, the man who cared so much for me. He would get angry when others looked at me. How did I know he would cheat on me, how could I distrust him then? People call me stupid now because I believed him.
It's not just the story of Nilima and Aranya. There are thousands of such stories that we may not know and some of the stories we see on social media. There are so many masked people around us. Their sweet and lovely words melt our heart. It is really difficult to understand who we should believe and who we should not believe because everyone around us has so many masks that it is very difficult to understand. So we must always remember that even if we trust someone, we must keep that faith so that it does not bring us dark days. It is really foolish to give everything to someone.