Things have not been going as I expected lately. To spice up my moody days, I went out for dinner at a place I love. Watching the sunset here is so enjoyable! I usually have my meals here watching the sunset, and having a hot drink while watching the sunset is very good for me. I am tired of cities and crowds! I feel stuck and I want to get away from it all and move somewhere where I can be more free and live a carefree life. I think I am going through a turning point in my life. I am going through a period where I feel very tired and exhausted. Struggling for a long time is mentally exhausting and unfortunately leads to dead ends. Nothing is going my way lately and I am incredibly bored with everything! Especially being in expectation has exhausted me a lot. Constantly waiting for something and not getting results wears you out. I need to get away and take a break. Maybe to a remote village house!
It's very comforting to write here about things I've never told anyone! I realize that I haven't been paying enough attention here lately, but unfortunately I don't have enough energy for that. It's time for me to step back and take a break. I hope this stagnant process will end as soon as possible and I will regain my old energetic and exciting life. For now, I will enjoy this process and I am sure there is something I need to learn! So what is it? I will find out. Wish me luck!
