MAN IS A CREATURE HEAVILY LADEN WITH BURDENS. Before you guys come at me, 'Man' in this context is gender-neutral, lol. I have had a lot of time to think recently (well, I am jobless, lol, what else would I do?!) and a lot of deep life questions have clouded my mind, and this has inadvertently greatly affected my mental health. I know I use these words loosely, or maybe I sound like a broken record now, BUT these are extremely torrid times for me. Every single part of my life has posed a monumental challenge. This is no jape I promise. Spiritual, physical, mental, emotional, every single 'al' in existence. As human beings, when we are hit with adversity, oftentimes we try to find solace in other parts of our life just to give us that little bit of motivation to strive on. I have looked everywhere and fucking heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllll. The stress has been so great for me that I actually started seeing physical symptoms of it. Crazy, I know but it's true. I was scrolling through Facebook when I saw a WHO ad about the need to pay attention to our mental health. They listed a number of physical symptoms that shows one might be under great stress; mental stress and my body was showing the majority of them.
Here is the funny bit though. Regardless of all this treachery, I have actually been surviving. I mean, solving some of the immediate problems and getting out unscathed, or sometimes with minimal damage to my resources. I have made some real sacrifices that left me in awe. All these have made me realize that a human being (no, not me) is capable of immense greatness. One he doesn't know he/she is capable of. You are capable of insane things. The only thing that probably limits you is your mind. It's an incredible thing to be able to stand tall when others bend, to be strong for others when they are weak, to shine that light when everywhere is dim, to wear that cheeky smile when the brooding gloom is endless, to provide even little when the resources are scarce, to belive for everyone even in despair, to find that bit of humor in the whole melancholy. I have tried to be these things for my family in recent times and it has particularly shaped me. Man is all but complicated. Wired with various endless emotions and challenges, and then left to handle them.
Okay so I have this great urge now to actually put a major disclaimer at the top of this post that reads, 'DON'T TAKE HIM SERIOUSLY' but no, I won't. TO PUT ALL THIS GIBBERISH INTO CONTEXT, PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR MENTAL HEALTH. Your life literally depends on it, I promise you. Neglecting it can wreak great havoc on your overall health, take the cunt writing this post as a lesson, and don't be a fuckward (I just coined that word and I am so copyrighting it asap). Don't feel sorry for me, be happy for me, I STOOD TALL. I SURVIVED. I AM SURVIVING; THAT COUNTS DOESN'T IT