With help I can function | To not be alone | The Monte Verde Festival | Mouth-To-Mouth Progaganda | The CEO who wants to know

I left school, worked and got an apartment. So many people where coming around it was always full house. I spent my money for pizza, snickers, put on music and served tea. We watched Dazed and Confused, Friday, it was so cool.

I had a nice bong and my room had lots of flowers and plants. I had anxiety and kept it a secret. First the sweat in the armpits, then the tic next to the nose. Later I could not sit still anymore and my confidence vanished as my friends started their careers at the universities in Germany and abroad or finished their educations and made bucks while the worst thing for me was imagining to go back into a classroom after they hit me so often on the arm and head and nobody helped me.

Today I contacted someone from Steemit who supported me with a Western Union transfer of 155 Euros. A gift. I spent already half of the money for liquid for the e-cigarette, an anti-fungal drug, the anti-scabies drug and something to eat and drink.

The man I met today is the CEO of Tottal. This company offers packages for travellers. You can book everything in advance and also pay it. Events, restaurants, clubs, transport. The service will go live in 2 months and he showed me the video which is not public yet as well as the website which also isn't live at press time.

I showed him Steemit, explained that transactions are free and so on. If you know how he can integrate it into his company leave a message here. I am the guy who talks to people and makes connections. More than 7000 personal introductions since I started for Steemit in July 2016.

Users like Hive account@mughat criticise it as not effective. But it has an impact and if we show that we support each other then the people I talk to will understand that this platform is a true game changer and not just a copy of what we have already.

Everyone for himself is not working for me. I need colleagues and friends who might send me a quick transaction which I will pay back later (or immediately) in Steem or SBD. Hive account@jsantana worked with me. I asked him to make a tutorial in Portuguese because Jacob from Hive account@barjacob is getting nervous now that my bill reached more than 50 SBD and since three days doesn't accept SBD anymore. He told me that because everything is in English he doesn't understand it. My hope is that he will register at Xapo and get a fancy crypto card. I want one too. Maybe he will let me use his address to receive it until I have my own.

I will - likely - stop the Power Down. Make better quality posts and keep pushing. Get the auto-vote back up and be all about Steemit again.

But I need you to back me up. Sometimes I get depressed, cannot do anything anymore because everything gets too much in my head. I feel left alone and think: 'Why is it so complicated for a wealthy person to go to Western Union and send me a bit of cash?'.

Was I not coming to BitShares so we can have the solution for the inhumane government system where they treated me and others so disrespectful? Their homeless shelters where you will get warts on your feet and needles are laying around. For me? I always worked hard. My problem is not that I am not willing to work or an addict or whatever. I just have to fight every day to have willpower, to not give up, to continue so that I do not die before my mother from suicide like my father or the friend of a friend who jumped in front of the train 2 months after he asked us to get him out of the psychiatry and I was in Berlin far away and had no money to take action. No matter if it comes through bullying or by realizing how shit the life for minorities can be who do not comply with the rules they want them to follow.

We need to support each other better than any government can. Perhaps we can make a group of people with similar issues and support each other when the shit hits the fan?

What I bought:

And some food:

And the Internet:

My old friends didn't respect my privacy. Once I looked into the letters I exchanged with friends and lovers and saw that someone left a message there.

If you will invite me in your house you can be sure that I will not do this shit. Yesterday I told Hive account@didosabino that I guess that I am too cool for the majority of users here. I quit the job when I saw that the boss was screaming at me. So many who do not speak up and do everything to keep a job. I spoke about weed: fired! The others didn't work harder than me but stayed. Also old money sucks. Capitalists work although they know how bad it is instead of protesting on the street until things get better. Crypto changed everything. I do not have moral problems to use this new money.

When I get the feeling that I am not alone then I feel good. I watched the video about the singer from Linkin Park and I have similar problems. I am happy, I am free. But a small wind and too much at the same time and my brain is overloaded and cannot function properly.

I found out that we will all go to the Monte Verde festival. I also made a pre-festival post here with a video of the location.

Andy C! My friends from Mosteiros and me. I will make flyers - maybe the expensive ones but likely not - because it will be hard to get the money back through your upvotes. Last time I spent 70 euros and only made 45. No it's not that. It's because I lost my bank account and now have problems to exchange to fiat. Money stuck on Bittrex with their new Know Your Customer Policy.

Here is a video of a rave I listened to on the music cassette which I bought in Camden Market in 1999. Andy C with Skibadee:

I hope there will be a MC. The nineties are long over and I have no idea what Andy C is doing nowadays but this video shows what I really like.

Cu there maybe!!!