Welcome to Steemit, Hive account@animalartclub! Your work is beautiful and your words equally so - I found reading your post very moving and it resonated with me greatly <3 Art provides great healing for me too, so I totally get what you are saying here. And I have similar experiences with difficult family members. For example, my mother took her own life after years of - albeit unintentionally - making mine miserable. Unlike your father, she was all too adept at expressing her feelings, but to the point of being completely unbalanced and unable to consider the consequences of unleashing them upon me as a child. My healing sounds very similar to yours, even though the cause of our distress (our parents' - and our culture's - lack of sound and supportive parenting skills) presented in somewhat different behaviours and attitudes.

At its heart, I feel that our human suffering is caused by the same root - the failure to adequately understand our own feelings in relation to the world and other people, and the skills to communicate them in ways that serve us well. The beauty of artistic expression is that it rises above all of this and conveys, without the need for words, our innermost thoughts, feelings, observations and needs. Our art reflects our true nature back to us in ways that are healthy, supportive and therapeutic, as does the whole of nature and all of nature's creations. I will be following your blog here with interest and enthusiasm, and I LOVE what you've shared so far SO MUCH. I wish you continued healing from the life and death of your father. You are on the right path <3 Jay xx

P.S. I have resteemed this post and given you my 100% upvoted (for what its worth!)