I can relate with what you are talking about. I've had some really bad financial difficulties in the last few years and because of this, I realized I'm not the person I use to be again, I don't associate with friends and even family again and I lie to myself claiming in a cool person. I stopped socializing with people even when I try to hang out with people, I put on this mask like everything is good, like I'm a positive kinda of person but I know deep down that I'm only deceiving myself. I've been pouring my heart out recently and telling myself the truth that all is not well and I've been feeling a bit better. I think we need to first realize that all is not well. We need to tell ourselves the truth and we will be strong enough to find a solution.