Many of us feel so hopeless I know and I have been there and I still go there but I don't act on my feelings. It's difficult even to think about other people even our children or our families when we were feeling this way. But if it is a big part of our life purpose I commend you for allowing it to prevent you from ending your life. When I'm feeling this way I try and see the good in the world as best I can and the good in my life as best I can. It may seem like the darkness is greater than the light and it may seem like the bad is greater than the good. But that is a lie that our brains trick us with all the time. I hope you hang in there don't kill yourself. Find a way to ease the pain and hang onto yourself and your children and anything else good no matter how small it may be.
With love from a stranger online Carol