Thank you for this beautiful comment Hive account@nuthman. Exactly 20 something years into my life I realized I was not okay stifiling the sense that something was deeply wrong anymore! I love your perspective that perhaps life is a round trip. It reminds me of the T.S. Eliot quote:

"We shall not cease from exploration. And the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time."

I also agree that we're essentially aware when we're born... unified with everything around us. Then as we grow we're conditioned and molded and forget. But maybe we need to take that journey first? So when we arrive back to where we first began we can now consciously know it?