Those of you fellow steemians who follow me may have noticed that I've been pretty ghost for the last month and a bit. It's not because I got over Steemit. Or that I wasn't "earning enough rewards". It's not because I had "lost faith" in the Block-chain either. The reason is recently I have felt myself slipping back into my "old ways". I've been drinking incredibly heavily, smoking like a fucking chimney and pretty much lost all faith in humanity again. I've been struggling with money issues for the past couple of years now and I've felt my sanity start to slip. Now, I fucking hate money. Unfortunately though, money is the cunt that tells all what to do and we have no choice but to follow his orders, for now at least.
Everyday I wake up, drink a few coffees, smoke multiple cigarettes, stumble around the house lost in my own thoughts and then eventually drink beer until I can't think anymore. Basically I drown myself out. I know it's a shitty mindset to be in and I am trying to change old habits. One day at a time right? Until then, here's to being insecure! Raises beer.
I've since found work that seems highly reliable, though I don't start until early next year. So maybe that could push me back onto the right path and finally give me a decent opportunity to get some money behind me and make me start making some good choices in life.
Anyway enough of the depressing dribble. The fact aside, I'm using this to let you know that I'm still here and yes I will try start making more of an appearance on here again.
On a lighter note here's some music that I've done over the years. Hopefully it lightens the mood for the people who bothered to read this.
