Girl I wish I could have the words to help you through this, but I have never been a mom to a child, and I can only imagine how hard it must be. All I can say is that you're a rockstar. Instagram Fitness moms make it look so easy but then again they are stay-at-home moms, and their job is taking care of their child. The husband will come home, help take care of a child while they go to workout. And it looks simple, but life isn't always that way. Things always get in the way and don't work out the way we want them too. You being a fit-mom, working a full-time job, being a wife-just what you're doing right now is so inspiring. I get that you don't want to miss out on your child's life, but you have your goals too. I'm rooting for you and hope that life falls into place so that this process becomes easier. I know you have the ability to be Steemit famous. Then maybe you can do all that you want by working from home. Those are my goals for you. 😊